Lots of little beautiful gem-like orbs with sunny shiny dispositions have been crashing around into each other in my head recently, causing a headache. I may be mistaken, but I believe they are actually Good Ideas in the form of small, swallowable, discernible packets. Each time I try to share one in certain, negativity-prone settings, I find it has been jammed somewhere in my throat, ear or eye socket.
It is tempting to feel a sense of frustration with the Ideas themselves. Why do they have to be so elusive? What are they actually Good for, if not for sharing, and playing games, and causing enjoyment and growth? Sometimes they seem to be Good for only getting stuck, and making me feel confused. Like they are only going to get mixed up with each other and take up space, and in the clamor to emerge, like septuplets not fully formed and a subway car too full, it is not possible for them to be born all at once. One at a time, marbles!
It could be that these Good Ideas are generating inside of me and through no fault of my own they just want to come out into the world. If I practice some patience, there is a chance they can be of use somehow. Perhaps these little shiny orbs are a form of creative idealism… wishing to emerge. At the moment they feel like a Big Hassle.